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Mar. 6th, 2008 @ 10:11 pm (no subject)
Well, It's once again been forever since I've done anything worthwhile. Ah, well. It comes and goes. I've got a few pieces of music I might be entering in the composers symposium this semester. I'm still writing, I'll prolly put some of the stuff up in a little bit; tonight or some other time soon to be disclosed. Erm... time to things and go do.
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Mar. 5th, 2008 @ 04:41 pm MEHER!
Hey, Meher, just in case you didn't see these when I put them on your comments, here they is again. I know it's short notice, but could you answer these (even if it's bullshit, as long as they're answers) by Thursday night? My paper is due on Friday. Thanks a bunch, you totally rock my socks off... which is why I never wear socks... cause every time I put them on, you rock them back off.

Where did you go to school?
What was the name of your High School?
What was the dominant culture of the school?
Were there clicks at your school?
What defined people as members of these clicks?
Did you ever feel discriminated against at school?
By teachers? By peers?
Because of race, religion or other reason?
Can you give (an) example(s)?
How did your home culture impact your experience at school?
How did the culture/atmosphere of your school effect your education?
How did your experiences influence your view on the school system as a whole?
Would you relive your school experience again?
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Feb. 7th, 2008 @ 08:15 pm The Mikado is Over!
Current Mood: recumbent
As it says in the Subject, I'm done with the opera and now have time to live again. Sexmonkeys, no? yes.

I'm still writing. In fact, read this!!!

Johnny ran down the corridor, mind racing. He had to catch up with Bob before he did something insanely stupid. He tried to figure out exactly why Bob had gone into his room and come back out seconds later with his shotgun resting across his shoulders. “I’m going to go find Sally, I’ll see you later,” he had said. It had taken Johnny a good five minutes to register what had happened, and now he knew that Sally’s only hope was for Johnny to find her first and stop Bob from shooing her.

Bob rumbled through rooms, past airlocks, and around obstacles without seeming to see any of it. His eyes were clouded over and he had one thing on his mind. The bitch had to be put down. There was no other way that Bob could see to redeem the group. Her stench must be wiped from their headquarters or else she would surely take them down with her. Bob knew that she usually left the observatory at this time and then met Johnny for lunch. He would simply have to intercept her before she got to the mess hall.

Before she could even realize what was going on, she heard the airlocks shoot open and saw Bob fly in screaming at her to stop moving. When she whirled around, Sally could only see the barrel of Bob’s favorite shotgun three feet from her face. “You’re going to pay for what you did, bitch!” Sally’s mind reeled as she tried to remember what it was that she had done to piss Bob off. Her mind was a complete blank; he had always been so friendly since she’d come almost a year ago.

His hands were as steady as granite, but is breath was shaky as he tried to slow his heart down to revel in the pleasure of blowing the bitch out of existence. Bob heard the airlock behind him breeze open but didn’t want to take his eyes off of the monster that stood trembling before him. He knew he had to stop her from destroying his friend’s life any more than she already had. The bitch had to die, there was no other way he could save his friend.

Johnny’s mind raced as he desperately tried to find a way to stop Bob from killing Sally. His keen eyes caught Sally’s slow, steady movements as she reached for the gun she always kept tucked in the back of her waistband. There was no way Bob had missed that, Bob’s eyes had always been the best. He could read a sign from two hundred yards away with ninety-seven percent accuracy. Johnny knew that if he didn’t act quickly, Sally’s brains would be splattered across the wall.

Alice loved the swooshing noise the airlocks made as they opened. She smiled as the walked through the last one before the observatory. Her smile was quickly washed away by a tidal wave of confusion and fear. The airlock revealed her best friend staring down the barrel of a shotgun and her boyfriend standing helplessly to the side. Bob finally snapped, she thought. As the resident psychiatrist, she had seen it coming from a mile away. However, all of her training had not prepared her for what to do when a 297-pound psychopath had a shotgun aimed at your best friend’s head. Alice was paralyzed in fear.

I’ve only got one chance at this, I need to make it count. Johnny quickly took one last look at the situation to see if there was any other way out… there wasn’t. He calculated the distance between himself and his friend. He took one last quick breath and jumped right as he saw Bob’s finger hug the trigger tight.

Alice saw all three of her friends move at once. The sound of two gunshots caused her to shriek in fear and cover her face with her hands. Seconds later, she dropped her hands. Bob stood still, staring at his shotgun in disbelief. Horror was written all over his face. He did not twitch once. Sally had dropped her pistol to the ground; smoke still trailed from its barrel. She was curled up next to it, weeping hysterically. Johnny’s contorted body lay on the ground between his lover and his best friend. Crimson seeped from his chest, permanently staining the floor around him.
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Feb. 5th, 2008 @ 01:27 am Loss
Well, The Mikado is over and I'm back to doing nothing again. 'Cept for schoolwork, classes, and spending time with friends. I'm glad to see it go, but at the same time, as I was walking back after our last show, I felt like I was going to miss it. It was good to perform again that wasn't a choir concert. I didn't really like the show that much, but I loved spending time with the people. It's always fun to have other people who are passionate about performing music to hang out with. I shall definitely miss that.

Getting back to the dorm wasn't as fun, I found that most of my friends had walked out of the show halfway through. I'm not going to lie, it hurt that they couldn't force through their offense to stay for the end of the show just to see me perform. Oh well, I'm over it.

Sunday was my day to feel hopelessly alone in the world. I was gonna post something on here, but I wasn't in the mood. I couldn't feel any attachment to any human on the face of the planet. No one here, no one from Greenwood, no one in Minnesota. I suppose that most of the blame for this falls on the opera. Any time that was spent outside of rehearsal I was either doing homework or too damn tired to care about anything or anyone. The feeling soon passed, but I couldn't help but feel rotten for most of the day.

I guess for now I'm just moping along taking turns between catching up with homework and catching up with sleep. When I can, I'm going to try to catch up with people I haven't had contact with... we'll see how that goes...*foreboding.*

In less depressing news, I've been writing music and stories. Both are exciting and were the only things keeping me going thru Mikado. I suppose I'll update more on these when more arises to be updated upon. Dr. Noble told us to never use upon, it is old and outdated... every time he said that, I wanted to tell him that he is more old than the word... I like upon. I will use it when and how I like. Fucking Nazi.
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Jan. 23rd, 2008 @ 01:55 am Because no one asked for it!
Jussa sat in his throne with his fingers digging firmly into his temples, trying to block out the sound of the men and women shouting at each other from their seats in the royal court. Half of the crusty, bejeweled men and women who had almost all reached antiquity sat on the left side of the three thrones at the back of the room, while the other musty, decaying half sat to the right. They howled and cawed at each other, every one trying to lay claim to the throne for either himself or a son or daughter.

“It has been twenty years since King Pell has gone from us. Is it not time that we find a new man to sit in his place? I was his cousin’s oldest Uncle, therefore, my son has the right to the throne!” one man who appeared to be nearing eighty coughed.

“Who says it has to be a man? We should return to the old ways! The Nine Goddesses would want it that way! They did name our first ruler as Harathia, our Mother Queen. My granddaughter should take the throne and return the femininity that has been sorely lacking here!” a dusty old woman crowed from across the floor.

“If we were to put a woman on the throne, should it not be the standing Queen Myl?” a relatively younger gentleman, aged sixty-seven, asked. The old woman swung her cane at him, landing a blow right between his eyes. The man toppled over the railing and landed with a sickening crunch on the ground, thirty feet below.

Jussa sat on his throne, digging his fingers ever deeper, trying to find some way to drown out the sound of the old fools’ bickering. As the ancients continued to protest every opinion that was placed on the floor, Jussa sunk deeper and deeper into his throne until he could stand it no longer. He took a hold of his staff that had been leaning against his throne, the smallest and least ornate of the three and stood up. His throne sat humbly, yet noticeably to the right of the king’s which had stood vacant for the past twenty years. On the other side of the center throne, stood the queen’s, which had been abandoned when Jussa thought it best to hide Myl away in a tower, safe from those who wish her ill will. Jussa raised his staff high above his head, and when that didn’t work, “Silence! Please, my lords and ladies! Silence I pray you!”

Many of the fossils were shocked into silence, but some of the old, more ornery ones continued their squabbles. Fed up, Jussa slammed his staff on the ground three times. The impacts echoed painfully throughout the grand hall, silencing all other noises. As the echoes died out, Jussa began speaking again, controlling the entire hall with his presence. “My dignified personages, if you please, we must continue these discussions in a more civilized manner, or I fear no conclusion shall ever be reached. As I’m sure you are all aware, we have received news from the eastern border that the Ennedi are mobilizing. They gather an army twice the size of the one we lost King Pell to twenty years past. Our greatest strategists can foresee one outcome: the utter destruction of our land. The only hope, they say, is if we manage to gather our people under the throne again.

“Now, I realize that you all feel that you or your offspring has some sort of claim to this throne. However, unless we come to some sort of decision, Ennedi will surely send us to our ancestors. I suggest that we not leave until we have found some sort of solution, lest we be sent the way of our neighbors to the north.”

“If any one royal line gets their fingers on the throne, there will be no way to remove it, even after the war,” one elderly woman called from the back of the hall. Every voice in the hall echoed her sentiments.

“We would have no way of assuring that the chosen line would actually be the best one,” a man who could barely breathe agreed.

“I have an idea,” the youngest member of the court groaned as he stood up from where he had fallen, wiping the blood from the side of his head. “Since you, Grand Minister Jussa, are a neutral party, you could assume a temporary command of the kingdom, to lead us through this sticky situation, and when these hard times have passed, we can properly select the true successor to the throne.” The entire hall was devoid of any sound.

“Certainly you jest, sir. I am no leader. My sole duty on this sphere is to fulfill the will of the Nine Goddesses, a duty which is best accomplished from this seat, not this one.” Jussa gestured to his throne and the king’s in turn.

“Surely, you have the ability to lead us out of this predicament!” a full minute passed without a single soul breathing. Then all present erupted into roars of agreement.

Jussa tried to protest, claiming that he, truly, was not the man for the job. However, as he turned to take his leave, a thin, maniacal smile spread across his lips. His plan had worked perfectly.


It was dark. It was always dark. The only light Myl had was that which managed to trickle its way in between the bars on her window which hung a good five feet over her head. She had grown rather accustomed to her solitude. She hadn’t seen her husband for twenty years, half her life. She held no hopes of ever seeing her true love again. Her son, however, was a different story. She hadn’t seen him since the boy had been born sixteen years ago. She still held the images of both her husband and her son fresh in her mind, as if she had just held them yesterday.

“One day I’ll get out of here and get my hands on Jussa. If only he knew what I could do to him with my bare hands. That poor little excuse for a man will wish he had never sat on that throne once I’m through with him.

“Although, I’m quite sure he knows what I could do to him. There is no reason why he would pretend to be protecting me by hiding me away up here.” Myl had taken to talking to herself in the long months in solitude.

“Yes, ma’am I’m quite sure he knows exactly what it is you can do.” However, this time, she was not alone. “We are nearly ready to set our plan into action. Intelligence tells us that within the week, Ennedi will move into position and begin their attack on Harath.” The figure Myl spoke with was clad all in black and was invisible save for its eyes in the darkness of her cell. The eyes were pure white, and shone brilliantly in the shadows.

“Do you think you’ll be able to handle everything?”

“We have taken precautions against almost every possible move from both sides of the war. There is no way that we will come out of this without being victorious.”

“And you’ll come and free me?”

“How could we not? You are an integral part of the plan.”

“I still don’t see how Harath will be able to battle the magic of the Ennedi. The Nine Goddesses would not show favor on us were we to use magic.”

The glowing eyes crinkled into a grin, “You could say that the Nine Goddesses aren’t always as unyielding as the Ministers make them out to be.” As the figure turned to leave, the shadows seemed to teem and swirl around its hands. “I’ll not be visiting again, it’s far too risky. We shall retrieve you two days after the start of the conflict. Farewell.”

“Farewell, Syral.” The figure froze, halfway through the wall.

“But how did you know?” his voice didn’t change, but Myl know he was shocked.

“How could I forget those eyes? I love you, and I am proud of you.”

“I love you too, mother,” Syral slipped through the wall and Myl was once again alone.
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Jan. 18th, 2008 @ 01:47 am Creative Writing Jobbers
Part 1
A: Great! Just great! Way to go!
B: Calm down, it will be fine.
A: Fine?! We are hurtling toward a star in a twenty-ton screaming metal deathtrap and “it will be fine” is all you can say?
B: … Yeah!
A: How the- what the f- Graaah!
B: Don’t worry, I’m sure Chuck can fix the engine.
A: Let’s hope so, for your sake.
B: Don’t worry, Chuck can fix anything, that’s why you hired him.
A: You keep saying he can fix anything but I haven’t seen that lousy brother of yours fix anything on this ship. He still hasn’t found the source of that wretched stench.
B: He’s just biding his time.
A: Biding his- quit making excuses! Get that joker on the screen now!
B: Ok, ok. Chuck. Chuck! …He’s –uh- not answering, sir.
A: What?!? Where the Hell is he?
B: He’s… um-
A: How the Hell can Chuck fix the engine if he isn’t even here?
B: I’m sure he’s just getting… -doughnuts.
A: Doughnuts???
B: Maybe-?
A: Shit! Well, how long do we have till we hit the star?
B: Ten seconds?
A: Well, I suppose we should just enjoy our final seconds
B: I – I love you sir, I’ve always love you. I just wanted you to know before we die.
A: I love you too, Randall.

Part 2
‘God, I hate her,’ Chuck thought to himself. ‘She never leaves me alone. All I want is a few minutes to myself, but whenever I find time, she pops up.’ Chuck stuffed the last few bites of his burrito into his mouth and continued to wander around the engine room, looking for some way to waste his time. “Wouldn’t mind getting into those pants, though.” Chuck allowed his mind to wander, recalling Lisa’s tight fitting trousers. He had always thought she looked nice in the uniform. “Too bad she’s all in my head,” not that it stopped him fantasizing about her.
“How many times must I tell you, I’m not your imaginary friend, I’m the holographic representation of this ship’s computer.” Lisa shimmered into existence before Chuck. She beamed her characteristic grin.
Chuck choked on the last chunk of his burrito. “Dammit! Why do you keep doing that?” he managed to spit the remnants of his lunch onto the ground, where he left it.
“I like watching you react,” the hologram giggled. Chuck swore under his breath as he cleared his throat, making sure there were no shadows of his burrito in his pipes. His eyes bore into Lisa’s chest, he didn’t even care if she noticed him staring.
“So, how do you have sex?” Chuck straightened up, trying to compose himself. He swept the greasy tangled locks of brown hair from his round, oily face. He sneered at the girl, who giggled when she saw the chunks of burrito stuck between his yellowing teeth. “How could I do the crazy voice in my head? ‘Cause, between you ‘n me…and anyone else who cares to listen, I’d do you in a heartbeat.” Lisa giggled. ‘That damn giggle! I hate it so much. And yet, it just makes me want her more.’
“I don’t have sex. I’m a computer generated hologram, silly.” She moved toward him, smiling. Chuck smiled too. “I’m not really here,” Lisa proceeded to walk through Chuck. His smile disappeared. His stomach growled.
“Can you go away now? The captain told me to fix something in here, and I can’t concentrate with you in here,” he continued relentlessly eyeing the girl. He hiked up his stained pants and grabbed a wrench that had been lying on a console and he prepared to get to work.
“But I get so bored without having someone to talk to.” ‘Why is she flirting with me if she doesn’t have sex? I can’t figure this chick out.’
“Well, fine then, if you won’t leave me alone, I’m gonna go find some doughnuts.” He hurled the wrench over his shoulder and heard it crash into some machinery. He walked through her with his hands stretched out in front of him, just in case he might be able to cop a feel.
Lisa’s giggle sounded distorted, as it fizzled and popped. Chuck looked back and saw the girl shatter and disappear. ‘There she goes again.’ He fell backwards and smashed his head on the hatchway as the ship jerked violently to one side.

Part 3
The hinge of the hatchway squeaks faintly as the hatch moves monotonously back and forth, having been left carelessly ajar. Every once in a while, as the ship turns in one direction or another, the hatch will get enough momentum to clang mercilessly into the wall, the sound echoes down the corridors for minutes after impact.
The putrid stench of half-eaten, rotting food emanates from behind every piece of machinery and from every corner. Burritos litter the floor, partially concealed by their wrappers. Discarded bags of chips lay torn in pieces, having been licked entirely clean. Not a single console can be seen from under mounds of plates, napkins, cookies, pop bottles, and candy bar wrappers. Half chewed mounds of meat lay slowly drying on the floor. The stink wafts through the vents and ducts, permeating throughout the rest of the ship, making it all smell of nine-month-old eggs and razor burn.
Amidst the clutter of food items lies several toolboxes worth of equipment. Screwdrivers and hammers had been carelessly thrown, left to lie where they fell. Wrenches lay in the dust, now made more of rust than of actual metal. Pliers and sandpaper mingle with loose screws and nails scattered dangerously across the floor.
Loose tangles of wire and machinery clink and clang as they hang precariously on to their homes. Lights beep and flicker their last flickers, having lasted much longer than possible. The entire room hums and resonates in a chorus of malfunction.
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Jan. 12th, 2008 @ 01:52 am Mashed pertatoes!
I just finished reading through all of my entries I've ever put on here. And I have to say, I've inspired myself to writing... I'm excited... I'm sure it won't last terribly lond, but whatever. This is a second part to an intro/story I started up a while ago. Enjoy

I groggily lifted my head from the ground. I shook it to try to clear it of the fog, but that only made things worse. I lay back down and tried to wait for the ground to stop spinning. Eventually it did and let me stand shakily up. Everything around me was awkwardly familiar, and yet, I knew that I had never been here before in my life. Everything looked like home, and yet, it didn’t quite feel right. There was something in the air, not palpable, and yet, I could somehow feel it. I wasn’t sure if it was lethal, but it didn’t seem to be doing any damage just yet.
“Hello?” my voice sounded alien to my own ears; raspy and unused. “Where is everyone?” the first few steps I took were torturous. I felt as though I’d never walked a day in my life. Eventually, my legs caught up with the rest of my body, and I tried to find a familiar face—or any face for that matter. “Ryain? Raych? Emmz? Neight? Hello? Where are you guys? Ok, joke’s over, let’s go!” my voice was still raw, but I shouted anyway. As I stumbled around, I realized that I couldn’t remember anything before I woke up.
Then I panicked. There was nothing in my mind before a few seconds ago. Nothing. I couldn’t even remember where the names I’d been shouting had come from. I felt as though I had just begun existing when I lifted my head from the concrete. Everything before that was a vast expanse of white.
I stopped yelling. I couldn’t think of anyone else to yell at. I just wandered around, trying to figure out where I was, who I was, and what I had forgotten. My eyes swept around the bare walls of the building I was in. It looked as though it had been a house at some point. However, there was absolutely nothing in it. No furniture, no pictures, no carpeting, nothing. The house had a few rooms, each of which was entirely bare. One room, the smallest, caught my eye. It was in the corner of the house and looked as though it had enough room for a bed, a dresser, and a bookshelf to fit comfortably. I curled up in the corner and tried to figure out what was happening to me.
I sat and thought, wracking my brain for any sign of anything. I wanted to find some clue about me; the past, the present, the future, any way to figure out what was going on. I lay down in the corner and stared at the wall. As I thought, my eyes began to droop, I must have hit my head harder than I realized. Hell, I hadn’t even realized I’d hit my head.
Something flashed on the bare wall before me.
My eyes snapped open. There, on the wall, as though it was a TV screen, flashed images that I had seen before. The scenes whirled and flashed so quickly that I shouldn’t have been able to follow them, but I could. My mind registered every one of them.
Wrestling with Neight. Laughing with Ryain. Cuddling with Emmz. Cuddling with Raych. Sitting on a couch and watching movies. I was laughing harder and louder than I had ever thought possible. I saw everyone I had forgotten. Rawb, Loryn, Neight, Emmz, Raych, Ryain, and list continued to grow. I saw birthday parties, from when I was four. Suddenly, the pictures stopped whirling, and I remembered who I was. I remembered my family back home, the family I’d made for myself with the people I loved. Unfortunately, I didn’t see anything that could help explain what had happened to bring me to this strange, empty place.
The screen flashed again and I saw more images of people. This time, people I didn’t recognize. People who looked and sounded like normal people, but somehow, there was something under that shell that made them feel alien. There were parties, hugging, laughing, music, dancing, rain. Everything looked exciting and comfortable, almost like being home, but it was different. If what I had seen before had been my memories, I must now be seeing memories again. But whose memories were they? Some person I had never met before.
This time, my eyes couldn’t keep up with the images. They spun faster and faster until it was finally a hypnotic blur on the wall across the room. I couldn’t take it any more. I needed to get out. I staggered across the room and tried to find a way out of the house. It took a few minutes but I found the door that lead out. As soon as I opened the door, I leaned over and vomited whatever I had in my stomach onto the ground beside the door.
I wiped my mouth and stood up. When my eyes adjusted to the light, I realized that there were no signs of life to be seen anywhere. No people, no animals, even the trees and plants seemed to be entirely devoid of life. I vomited again. There were buildings made of brick. Literally, they were each one large brick sitting on the ground with doors and perhaps a window or two cut into them. They were all some variation of red, just like the building I was standing before.
I couldn’t handle this new environment. My mind was still tearing itself into pieces trying to sort through everything it had seen on the wall. There was no wind. Nothing moved; everything was deathly still. My mind screamed louder and louder, trying to process the images from the wall and this new, disturbing environment. I almost collapsed under the strain, until suddenly it stopped. My ears rang from the silence.
I turned around, and went back into the building. I knew it was the safest place for now, I’d looked everywhere inside it. I shut the door and looked for a lock. There was none. I hoped that if there was anyone around to come into this building, they wouldn’t. I went into the corner of the largest room and slept. Somewhere inside me, I hope that I would wake up at home, and everything would be back to normal.
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Jan. 12th, 2008 @ 01:20 am Because I haven't jumped on any bandwagons recently(/ever)
100. WHAT’S YOUR PROFILE SONG & WHY?
What the hell is a profile song?

99. DO YOU HAVE A JOB? IF SO WHAT IS IT?
Workin' the performance hall

98.MIDDLE NAME?
Peter

97.DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE?
Hmm...yeah.

96. LIED IN THE LAST 24 HOURS?
No (does that count?)

95. BEST BREAK UP SONG?
what's a breakup song?

94. WHERE WAS THE LAST PLACE YOU TOOK A PLANE TO?
back from China

93. WHAT IS THE LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Fantastic Four: Rise of the Silver Surfer.... which didn't suck as much the second time thru
But after that, I watched The Day the Earth Stood Still... which was a cool movie

92.WHO IS THE PERSON YOU THINK OF THE MOST AND WHY?
Kate... I'm pretty sure that was obvious tho...

91. WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
A Jesus.

90.WHAT'S YOUR NAME?
What's my age again? Why the hell is this not the first question? Also, why is middle name earlier?

88. DO YOU HAVE ANY FRENDS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX YOU CAN TALK TO?
What is the opposite sex?

87. DO YOU HAVE ANY SIBLINGS?
Two brothers

86. WHERE ARE YOU NOW?
Family's compy room

85. FAVE COLORS?
Orange...Purple...blue...gray I like gray

84. WHAT DOES THE 7TH MESSAGE IN YOUR INBOX SAY ON YOUR PHONE?
"Hello, you are close to me right now"

82. WHAT IS SITTING TO THE LEFT OF YOU?
a circular table

80. DO YOU HAVE ANY KIDS?
More sticks than you could shake a kid at.... or something like that.

79. WHO IS THE 5TH PERSON YOU GOT A MISSED CALL FROM?
Ry

78. CLOSEST BLACK OBJECT?
Keyboard

77. CLOSEST SILVER OBJECT?
Keyring

76. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT?
I think the correct question is who. I was in a bed with three girls, one of whom is a lesbian. Fun times

75. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?
What the fuck is a shower?

74. DO YOU OWN ANY PETS?
Nikki

73. HOW OLD ARE YOU?
20

72. LAST TIME YOU LISTENED TO COUNTRY MUSIC?
When I was drugged and tied down in a chair

71. GLASSES/CONTACTS?
20/20 Mothafuckers!

69. WHAT ARE YOUR FEARS?
Uh... surveys?

68. WHAT CAN YOU HEAR NOW?
AOL radio

67. HOW MANY DRUGS ARE IN YOUR SYSTEM NOW?
none... drugs are bad

66. WHAT IS ON YOUR RIGHT?
Why do you ask stupid questions?

65. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING?
None of the above

64. LAST PERSON TO COMMENT YOU?
Meher, I think

63. DO YOU SING?
Pshhh.... do you breathe?

62. SCREAMO OR COUNTRY?
:D

61. ROCK OR RAP?
I've always preferred paper to rock... scissors are good too.

60. LAST THING YOU BROKE?
my mind... again

59. WHO DID YOU LAST CALL?
Ryan. He hung up on me

58. WHO LAST CALLED YOU?
Kate

57. WHAT JEWELERY DO YOU WEAR DAILY?
uh... if my key and watch on a carribeaner counts then that

56. WHAT ARE YOU DOING NOW?
more than your feeble mind can smell

55. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU HUGGED?
Britt

54. WOULD YOU DIE FOR SOMEONE?
Yes

53. LATEST THING YOU’VE RECENTLY LEARNED?
Learning is a bad word...

52. ARE YOU COLD NOW?
I don't do that "cold" thing

51. WHAT DO YOU SMELL?
cookies?

50. IS ANYTHING BOTHERING YOU RIGHT NOW?
yeah... that's what happens when your brain is as massive as mine

48. WHAT ARE YOU DOING TOMORROW?
Going to school

47. IF YOUR EX WANTED YOU BACK, WOULD YOU TAKE THEM BACK?
Heh... I'm prolly gonna catch shit for this, but what the fuck

The only ex i've ever had is dead.

46. BED SHEET COLOR?
ORANGE

43. DO YOU LOVE SOMEONE NOW?
Now, why ask if I have a crush and then ask if i like someone?

42. CAN YOU SWIM?
No. I am water.

37. FAVORITE SMELL?
mud? rain? something like that. or flatulence

36. EVER GONE A WHOLE DAY WITHOUT EATING??
FOOD GOOD!

35. United States OR CANADA?
Canada... more snow and less people who live in Indiana

33. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU FOUND OUT YOU WERE?
HOLY SHIT!!!! I-I-I-I AM? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! *loads rifle* *sobs* *pulls trigger* *dies*

JEANS OR SWEATPANTS?
Jeans.

29. DO YOU HAVE SOCKS ON?
socks are not your friends... ever

28. DO YOU OWN BIG SUNGLASSES?
Unless you are talking about the kind that are about three feet wide you'd better shut the fuck up.

27. HAVE YOU CRIED SO HARD YOU MADE YOURSELF SICK?
I don't cry. I'm a man. ;-D

26. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
momma cookies!

25. HAVE YOU EVER LAUGHED SO HARD YOU CRIED?
Only when I want to

24. WHAT IS YOUR RELATIONSHIP STATUS?
I don't think that can be expressed in any terms you'd understand

23. HAVE YOU RECENTLY TALKED TO AN EX?
Look at that last comment about exes... not since...uh...almost 5 years

19. FAVORITE TV SHOW?
Zim, Pushing Daisies, American Gladiators, Heroes, Futurama

18. DO YOU LIKE 80s MOVIES?
I LOVE 80s MOVIES! Especially their vampire movies!

17. ISN'T THIS THE BEST SURVEY EVER?
YOU SUCK!

16. WHEN IS YOUR BIRTHDAY?
October 4

15. WHAT KINDA MUSIC DO YOU LIKE?
I'll like just about anything that doesn't suck... (choke on that answer, douche-fag)

13. BEST CITY YOU’VE VISITED?
Hangzhou

12. BEEN TO LONDON?
Never made it to the isles...

10. FAVORITE SUBJECT AT SCHOOL?
uh...none? Not a fan of how we run our schools.. but that's why I'm gonna fix it.

9. BEEN TO COLLEGE?
What the fuck is a been?

7. FAVORITE TIME OF DAY?
Any time when I don't have to put up with too many people. That usually ends up being the wee hours of the morning

6. EVER LICKED SOMEONES CHEEK?
yummy.

5. SEEN ALL THE SPIDERMAN MOVIES?
Now you're just trying to get to 1, you smelly bimbo

4. WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO?
D&D and hanging with my peops back at school

3. EVER GOTTEN LOST IN THE DARK?
I am the dark... you get lost in me (sexy, huh?)

2. DO YOU SNORE/TALK/WALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
Talk, walk, tell stories, hold conversations and type, bitch

1. ARE YOU AFRAID WHEN YOU'RE HOME ALONE?
Home alone is the best thing to be. Also, shitty way to end a survey.
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Jan. 11th, 2008 @ 12:14 am Sigur Ros equals musical orgasm
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Sigur Ros
I'm going to do something right now that I hardly ever do here. I'm going to write a possitive post! Ever since I posted that last post, I keep coming back here. I like it, it makes me feel- I'm not exactly sure what- but it makes me feel none the less. I like it too. The last few nights have been amazingly not crappy.

Tuesday night I went back to the dorm to visit David, the roomie, and we went to see Juno. That movie and it's soundtrack make me veryvery happy. If you haven't seen it, you need to. It's good. And I mean good. I missed my David. He's the coolest guy I've ever been forced to live with.

Wednesday, I went and traded a movie for The One with Jet Li in it. 'Cause I don't think I have enough action flicks. After that, I went to pick up Heima, Sigur Ros' DVD. IT WAS AMAZING! There really is no way of putting it into words, it is simply one of the most beautiful things you can ever hope to experience. You need to be a part of this group, it will make everything in your life wonderful.

Today, Britt and I went down to IU to visit some of our friends from high school. It was great. I always love going down there. We went to Grandpa's dorm and read her hypocondriac book for a while and then, when Jessica got out of class, we went over to her place to meet up with her, Lauryn, Spencer, and Eric. We sat there for a while and talked. Eventually, we made our way over to Mother Bear's, an amazing pizza place with obnoxious servers. People had classes and practices to get to, so we went back to Grandpa's place and hung out with her roomies for a while, it's always fun to see people react to us. It was fun to see them again, I don't think I'd seen either of her roomies for almost a year... Crazy.

I just hope I survive tomorrow without anyone dying. Saturday, I'm getting my ass over to school as early as I can to move in and hang out all fucking day. Sunday, I have practice for the Opera, the day BEFORE classes start... bastards. Not happy about that. Also, practices are every night on which I have a night class. Boo.

Oh well, it's only three weeks and then it will be over. Hopefully this semester will be easier than all my other ones... hopefully.
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Jan. 8th, 2008 @ 12:08 am Apparently the year is new...
Current Mood: The Blue Monster
Current Music: "The World Spins Madly On" The Weepies
The change in years used to throw me off like none other. Now I barely register that there is a difference. I yelled something about 2008 only a few hours in to the year and wasn't thrown off one bit. But whatever. I keep wanting to capitalize things that shouldn't be capitalized... it's kinda pissin' me off...

I think I'm slowly coming out of my semi-anual post-Minnesota depression. It always hits me very hard... it gets worse every time I come back here and have to wait another six or even twelve months to see everyone back in the Motherland. I wish it would get easier, but at the same time I don't. So long as it still tears me apart to come back, I know that I still have a place back home. Sometimes I feel that place disolving, but I know that it is just me overreacting. I do that a lot. I think and get myself into sticky situations, but things get just as messy when I don't think... It blows... a lot.

I hardly ever post here any more... and I say that every time I come back here, so I won't be promising to come back more often, because I do that too, and I don't feel like making false promises I'm pretty sure I won't be keeping.

I wrote again the other night. It happens so rarely these days... I don't like that

Whenever my mind stops reeling,
I see you.
Whenever I sit and think,
I see you.
Whenever I take a breath,
I miss you.
Whatever I do or say,
I miss you.

I was with you and I felt perfect,
The Universe was in its place.
Now without you I am hollow,
In my soul there is an empty space.
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Nov. 21st, 2007 @ 09:43 pm (no subject)
So, if you want me to have your cell number or any number I needs it NOW! My phone decided to break itself on a wall... and it lost its memory and doesn't know your number.
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Sep. 22nd, 2007 @ 11:48 pm (no subject)
Every once in a while, I get this deep seated, burning desire to go back to Minnesota. Right now is one of those times.
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Sep. 12th, 2007 @ 11:51 pm Tedious
"But no longer at ease here, in the old dispensation,
With an alien people clutching their gods.
I should be glad of another death."

~T.S. Elliot

Read this poem in class last night. Well, this is just the end of the poem entitled "Journey of the Magi." I liked it a lot. I wish I was taking poetry classes rather than lit classes. Poetry is easier... less reading at any rate.

Yuck.
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Aug. 26th, 2007 @ 06:16 pm Chop Sticks
Current Mood: blank
Current Music: Neko Case
It's been a while, hasn't it? GAAAH! Fuck you spellcheck! Leave me the Goddamn fuck alone! Stop following me around and telling me that I can't spell! Take your flimsy grasp of the English Language and kindly shove it up your ass!

Phew! Now that I've gotten that off my chest... time to bitch about other things! Music department: Blows itself for jollies. Education department: so many sticks up so many asses, it's a fuckin' package of popsicles. English department: Friendly and helpfull. See what's goin' on in this school? The department that is shoved off in the corner and forced to share offices with two other departments is the only department that is in any way, shape, or form helpful. Some people should just die. Others should be put into vegitative states. Still others should be robbed of their limbs so they're forced to get themselves around with their tongues.

The End.
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Jul. 23rd, 2007 @ 09:49 pm Heh... Things I Think Piss People Off
I'm taking Christian Theology (Jesus Class, for those of us who are so awesome we rock out loud) and often times, rather than paying attention to the professor, things pop into my head and I write them down. I think I should share these wonderful tidbits of insight. Feel free to comment or light them on fire. Enjoy:

*Note: if you don't like the term "God" replace it. The concept is still the same. Supreme Being, Divine Entity, Allah, God, whatever, it's the same concept in my mind. Pick the one you like and use it. Just don't let my use of "God" turn you off. I was in Christian Theology, so you understand...

The truth is a puzzle. The Divine Entity has given the pieces out. They're scattered across the globe. Now all that is needed is someone to put them all together.

Christ is the door to heaven, but not necessarily how you may think. One must follow Christ's teachings with one's heart and soul, not just one's mouth. Ergo, those who aren't "Christian" on the outside may still reach heaven by truly being "Christian" on the inside.

If bad comes from good, good is superior. However, what is good if not the antithesis of bad? How can you name something as good if you don't have something to label as bad conversly?

Whether by choice or by nature, the best way to gain enlightenment is to step outside of what is known and find your way to the truth.

Why is it that they who say that they believe in God have so little Faith in God's wisdom and strength?

Christianity is the "child" of Judaism. It's time Christianity had a child.

If a Christian gives because he is "supposed" to and a non-Christian does the same because he knows it is right, who is truly the better?

Define evil. Is something evil simply because we don't like it? 200 people die in a plane crash. It is unfortunate, but is it evil?

God ~> angels (including Lucifer) ~> fall. God made Lucifer to fall. God knew it would happen. Therefore, God allows the "evil" in this world to happen for some reason. Given this, is the evil in this world truly evil?

Parents punish to teach. Why can't God?

God is in everything, sometimes you just can't see it. In those cases, it helps to open your eyes again.
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Jul. 12th, 2007 @ 02:11 am (no subject)
Current Mood: amused
It's fun arguing points that people don't agree with. Especially in a Christian theology class. I got a lot of people riled up today, makes me feel loved. I'm gonna have fun with this term paper, I can tell. It's gonna be about how "Good" and "Evil" are relative. Something you might call evil... I probably wouldn't. Also, God does things that we might call evil, but is for the greater good. It's part of his plan. We can't comprehend it with our silly little minds, but The Allmighty One has things up its sleeves that we can't figure out... yet.

It will be AMAZING!
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Jun. 27th, 2007 @ 10:33 pm :-D
Current Location: The room that has been for so long occupied by Grandma.
Current Mood: loved
Current Music: Thunderstorm
Today was pretty cool. I woke up at seven and went to work from nine til four. That was a blast, let me tell you. Then, I went and played football with the guys. Knocked 'em all around a bit. t'was a glorious time. After that was yummy fish for dinner. I sat on my ass thinkin' about how sore I am gonna be in the morning and lovin' every minute of it.

Went out for to fill up the tank in case we need it while Ryan and Neight are here. A thunderstorm was rolling in from the South and I was about to go North to Borders when I suddenly said to myself. "Wait, if the storm is South, why am I going North?" So I went to a church playground and sat on the swing and watched the storm come in. When I was tired of swinging, I walked into the big open grassy area they have and just sat there, watching the storm. Being the storm. It was great.

Then, it was time to move on. I went to the cemetary, but it was closed. I'll have to go back some time.

Cleaned the basement and listened to music.

Ryan and Neight come in somewhere between 12 and 15 hours. Probably closer to 10.

Love you all and wish I could come home to MN.
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Jun. 4th, 2007 @ 11:35 pm I'm leaving for China in 5 hours!
In light of such events, and the fact that I prolly won't be doin' much LJing (or BJing) and FBing, I'm throwing this link on here. http://www.nuvo.net/travelBLOG/

This is a site where I will be blogging about my trip. If you want to see what I'm up to, visit. I don't know if I'll be able to update every day, but I shall try as often as possible. Yippie cye eye aye, mother-phukers.
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May. 16th, 2007 @ 12:24 pm La vie Boheme!
Life is good. It's been a while since I've actually been able to say that and mean it. It just feels like things are finally starting to shift in my favor. I've been spending lot's of time with music, which is always a good idea. I've got that book thing started that I posted earlier, which, hopefully I can get kickin' soon. I think I might get to that today...

I have a good feeling about the Target job, I might be working overnight, which will be fun, but it will cut into my chattin' time with all the Minnesotans. I think we'll manage, tho. We're all sexy enough. Pray to your respective deities or lack of deities that I can swing this. It would be wonderful. Just like that song.

I love all of you.
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May. 15th, 2007 @ 05:05 pm And Raychi's Pumping Gas
Current Mood: Bitchin' Cake!
Yesterday was fun; Pops dropped me off at the library so I could eat my McDonald's picnic style and then go in and get 1984 and A Brave New World. I wanted to get the second season of 4400, but they didn't have it. Boo on that. Then I had to bop my way home, which was a blast and a half. Then a bunch of us each went to a different park before finally figuring out which park Stevie had meant when she said "The one on Fry Road." She was thinking Pervert Park.... but that's not on Fry.... not at all. After the park and hiding from Britt, we went to Mrs. Curls and bought sexy ice cream and made fun of middle schoolers who thought they were all badass. Heroes and The Riches were both exciting last night.

Today also kicks ass. I woke up, watched Scrubs and ate brekkers. Showered, and waited around for Raychi to call. Eventually, when she didn't I jumped in the car to go gallivanting. As I was pulling out of the neighborhood, Kate called to celebrate how she was done with Jesus. So, I went to a park and swung on the swings while we talked. Then I went to Disc Replay and The Comic Shop and Walmart. That place always smelled funny to me. Then I went poo and got Wendy's! Yummy yummy Wendy's!!! Then I shot over to Target and bought Pan's Labyrinth! Huzzah!
Tonight is time for House. Yay House.

Oh, and by the way, Live Journal, Raychi says hi.
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